Ho'oponopono and Love-making

my beloved, saudade was introduced to dr. hew len by mama mab-el. at first look the simplicity of this method can seen of questionable value, but we have a testimony of its' value and authenticity in our lives.

all of our thoughts, memories, ideas...everything in our experiences leave "data"/ dead information in our soul. when we clean by saying and writing "i love you (xyz past memory), please forgive me (xyz past memory), thank you (xyz past memory) i release you (xyz past memory) to such a degree that we dwell in a state of direct experience and FREEDOM.

saudade practiced the "cleaning" and it was immediately noticable that there was something different in her spirit. when we layed down to share a nap, our shared-nap turned into sweet lovemaking! it was passionate, intense, fluid, warm, wet, pleasurable, healing, vocal, communal, prayerful and necessary! it's amazing how her "cleaning" affected my mood and enabled me to release my pain and love her and receive her love. one thing about Ho' opononpono is that it makes each one of us 100% responsible for herself and frees space in the soul for more inspiration and creativity. as artists and healers, this is/will continue to be our saving grace.


"i am absolutely clear in my soul that the divinity has given me one more chance to make amends for whatever is going on with me. i'm clear that my only purpose is to free myself..so that I can be free and be once more.....be aligned with the light... and be enlightened..."- Dr Hew Len who we affectionately refer to as "uncle" ;)

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this was our christmas; the best christmas of my life!

india

Catching and Tasting Rainwater

It's my goal to honor and celebrate the teachings and legacy of my indigenous culture on this planet and do the work that cultivates seeds of wisdom so that I may participate in restoring balance within my SELF and on earth. Tonight I caught some rainwater with my bare hands, prayed over my gift, and tasted my blessing. I am remembering my youth when I would jump in the air to catch rainwater with my tongue. I would play this game with myself, seeing how many drops I could catch without leaving my seat. This, along with other games I created, planted seeds in my imagination and fostered my creative talents. No worries of pollution or chem trails; just enjoying my time in the rain.Every direction I turn tells me that I have to connect with the natural world, not deny my other half.
i'm learning that:
IAMallowed to cry.
IAMallowed to think.
IAMallowed to hurt.
IAMallowed to heal.
IAMallowed to speak.
IAMallowed to express.
IAMallowed to be.

India

the realization of all the broken pieces within my heart,
knowing my vision has been/ is blocked by memories/ dead information
has caused great suffering in me for most of my life.
through meditation and ritual i am opening myself by erasing these memories/this dead information
bit by bit.


" you must have tremendous confidence in yourself that you can do anything suggested and given to you"
-r. mishra

my oshun altar

Ibase Osun, Mafarefun Yeye Olomo Sekeke Osun!
(I give praise, respect and homage to Osun, I bow my head to the earth, Great Grand Mother who has many children, woman who knows the mystery’s of the cowrie shells.

open hands, open heart: a cogitation

sitting, i recall the beauty of myself.
sitting, i also, recall the repugnant aspects of myself; and as i view these sides of me, i do not hold on to what was or what is.
because, within this very breath-the inhale and the exhale- i am transforming, i am in motion, i am new.
i am no better or worse. i am.
one truth within each breath is the journey and the interdependence of all things that, are visible and invisible by way of spirit.
therefore, i open my hands to release, to give and receive. i open my heart to heal,to listen and to love.

saudade

"Somehow I knew that there was much more going on than was apparent on the surface. My existence and that of the things going on around me caused me to question everything, always looking for the deeper meaning."

Luisah Teish, "Jambalaya: The Natural Woman's Book

Intentional Prayer and the healing Power of Words/Language:

Two nights ago, Saudade and I prayed together on the Earth. We shook the tambourine each time the other spoke something lovely/heartfelt, needlessly to say we were shaking that instrument often. Afterwards, I gave my blood as an offering to the Earth. It felt good to give some love back to the Earth since I receive so much for FREE. "Why have I not done this before," I ask myself.

India's Meditation:

I sat in an area of the house lovingly called "Temple" and stared at the shared ancestors' altar. Temple is very modest area, painted soft yellow but feels large, cozy, very holy/sacred with seemingly skyscraper ceilings.

We share intimacy here often. On this day, I focused my attention on the photo of mum and the white candle in the center. I relaxed my shoulders, trying to let them fall and release tension. My mind wanders; that's OK! I bring my attention back to the altar. I sit for 15-20 minutes, then I write :light in mind and body: over and over again. I am feeling lighter but I need more practice sitting. Also I need to sit first thing in the AM, after a shower. This will help to set a peaceful tone to my day.